Inside you're dying cause you can't believe
He would leave you alone
And leave you so cold
When you were his daughter
But the blood in your veins
As you carry his name
Turns thinner than water
What's really in a name? Does it define us? We carry it for most, if not all, of our lives, and there's not TOO much we can do about it. It tells us where we come from, but is linking ourselves to the past always a good thing?
I recently saw Boyce Avenue performing in my hometown and they came on and sang this song. Before they started, Alejandro spoke a bit about a friend who had faced a lot in the past but had gotten stronger from it and it really struck a chord with me. People will hurt you in the course of your life- fact. A lot of the time, these people will be people you're close to- fact. But sometimes, the people who hurt you will be the ones you least expect... the ones you're supposed to trust... the ones who're supposed to protect you. We can accept these as facts, but that doesn't mean we have to accept the consequences.
Your family name does not define you. The negative actions of those before you should not make any impression upon your life. If you don't like it, change it. I'm not one for rebelling against family members or anything, but if any of your family members are going to knowingly hurt you, then refuse to accept it. Stand up and say no. You may carry a name, but you don't have to carry the person. Turn a negative into a positive and go for it.
Friday, 11 November 2011
Wednesday, 12 October 2011
You have always worn your flaws upon your sleeve
All of your flaws and all of my flaws,
When they have been exhumed
We'll see that we need them to be who we are
Without them we'd be doomed
Flaw: a mark, fault, or other imperfection that mars a substance or object.
I'll be honest and say that I'm not someone who is very open about their flaws, and I don't immediately step forward and admit when I'm wrong. I'm not someone who embraces flaws and I'm most definitely not proud of them.
I am, however, a firm believer in the fact that they can shape our characters. What doesn't kill us makes us stronger and all that. I do not believe that they make us who we are though. Not entirely, anyway. We can't allow our flaws to 100% define us. They play a part, and of course we can't just erase them, but we can't just go: "Yep. That's ALL I am. I am depression. I am self harm. I am unfaithfulness. I am an eating disorder. I am dyslexia" These things can help you grow as a person, and yes, they can represent a period of your lifetime, but they can always be overcome. We can beat these things, little step by little step.
Without these flaws, we'd all be the same. We'd be happy, clappy, my life is awesome and I can breeze on through type people. Now where's the fun in that? What do you achieve? Not an awful lot! When you're older, would you not rather look back and think, "Yea, I was there. But I got out of it... I overcame that." I certainly would.
When they have been exhumed
We'll see that we need them to be who we are
Without them we'd be doomed
Flaw: a mark, fault, or other imperfection that mars a substance or object.
I'll be honest and say that I'm not someone who is very open about their flaws, and I don't immediately step forward and admit when I'm wrong. I'm not someone who embraces flaws and I'm most definitely not proud of them.
I am, however, a firm believer in the fact that they can shape our characters. What doesn't kill us makes us stronger and all that. I do not believe that they make us who we are though. Not entirely, anyway. We can't allow our flaws to 100% define us. They play a part, and of course we can't just erase them, but we can't just go: "Yep. That's ALL I am. I am depression. I am self harm. I am unfaithfulness. I am an eating disorder. I am dyslexia" These things can help you grow as a person, and yes, they can represent a period of your lifetime, but they can always be overcome. We can beat these things, little step by little step.
Without these flaws, we'd all be the same. We'd be happy, clappy, my life is awesome and I can breeze on through type people. Now where's the fun in that? What do you achieve? Not an awful lot! When you're older, would you not rather look back and think, "Yea, I was there. But I got out of it... I overcame that." I certainly would.
They say that they're not puppets and then we point them to the strings
They line us up in uniforms
And tell us not to feel
They've never been to Heaven
But they tell us that it's real
They say that this is a free country and we're always told that we can be what we want to be, but it's funny how there's always a list of exceptions. There's always a list of rules that must be obeyed, a schedule, an order- a method of control.
Well reader, you can be anything you want to be! Did you know that? I just hope you want to be in full-time education until at least the age of 16, then try to find a job, then obey all the laws of the land! So, if you want to be rich, you better get yourself into a good job or do something illegal. But of course to get that good job then you've gotta have some sort of qualification, so you've got to go to school, which of course is the law. And if you do something illegal to get this money, then that's going to get you into trouble. Soooo, you can't be a criminal.
Also, you better not want to be a druggie. Or an alcoholic. Or addicted to anything really, because it'll either be illegal or expensive, and of course to get that money you've to follow some other regime or climb some ladder within a business.
Love, too. If you want to be in love, you've got to befriend, court, then see how things go. Then, in the longrun, you engage and marry the person. Then you have a few kids, get a house, a car, and a whole lot of debt. You've got to pay your taxes, keep the roof over your head and food on the table. So you better keep up that nice job that you're expected to do every day with those qualifications that you were forced into studying for throughout your school years.
And maybe, if you're into the Christian thing, you could go to a nice little church in your nice little town with your nice little family all dressed in your nice little Sunday outfits. When you get there you can be given some more rules... Don't kill, don't lie, don't cheat, don't swear, don't drink, don't do this, don't do that, don't do the other. All in hopes of going to this place where nobody on Earth has been, but we have to trust exists. And don't dare question it! That's doubt, and doubt is bad! I mean, how dare you think?
We're generally encouraged to think for ourselves, but there's always something limiting us. People tell us that it can't be done, we convince ourselves that it can't be done, we don't have the money, we don't have the time, it's too "out of the box." Society has everything organised and everybody knows what role is theirs to play. It's a big show. Everyone has their smile on their face and their lines rehearsed and so we go on with the show. Everything is under control. As long as there's control, everything's easy.
So why not make it more difficult? Step out of your comfort zone. See what you can do. The Greeks were great thinkers. They stepped out of the box and were always in search of the next big thing. They wanted the answers to the big questions- they set the trends. Why not be a Greek? Challenge the norm. Think for yourself and do what you want to do. Ask questions and challenge what you're told. Make sure sure you completely understand instead of just accepting it.
And tell us not to feel
They've never been to Heaven
But they tell us that it's real
They say that this is a free country and we're always told that we can be what we want to be, but it's funny how there's always a list of exceptions. There's always a list of rules that must be obeyed, a schedule, an order- a method of control.
Well reader, you can be anything you want to be! Did you know that? I just hope you want to be in full-time education until at least the age of 16, then try to find a job, then obey all the laws of the land! So, if you want to be rich, you better get yourself into a good job or do something illegal. But of course to get that good job then you've gotta have some sort of qualification, so you've got to go to school, which of course is the law. And if you do something illegal to get this money, then that's going to get you into trouble. Soooo, you can't be a criminal.
Also, you better not want to be a druggie. Or an alcoholic. Or addicted to anything really, because it'll either be illegal or expensive, and of course to get that money you've to follow some other regime or climb some ladder within a business.
Love, too. If you want to be in love, you've got to befriend, court, then see how things go. Then, in the longrun, you engage and marry the person. Then you have a few kids, get a house, a car, and a whole lot of debt. You've got to pay your taxes, keep the roof over your head and food on the table. So you better keep up that nice job that you're expected to do every day with those qualifications that you were forced into studying for throughout your school years.
And maybe, if you're into the Christian thing, you could go to a nice little church in your nice little town with your nice little family all dressed in your nice little Sunday outfits. When you get there you can be given some more rules... Don't kill, don't lie, don't cheat, don't swear, don't drink, don't do this, don't do that, don't do the other. All in hopes of going to this place where nobody on Earth has been, but we have to trust exists. And don't dare question it! That's doubt, and doubt is bad! I mean, how dare you think?
We're generally encouraged to think for ourselves, but there's always something limiting us. People tell us that it can't be done, we convince ourselves that it can't be done, we don't have the money, we don't have the time, it's too "out of the box." Society has everything organised and everybody knows what role is theirs to play. It's a big show. Everyone has their smile on their face and their lines rehearsed and so we go on with the show. Everything is under control. As long as there's control, everything's easy.
So why not make it more difficult? Step out of your comfort zone. See what you can do. The Greeks were great thinkers. They stepped out of the box and were always in search of the next big thing. They wanted the answers to the big questions- they set the trends. Why not be a Greek? Challenge the norm. Think for yourself and do what you want to do. Ask questions and challenge what you're told. Make sure sure you completely understand instead of just accepting it.
Sunday, 26 June 2011
The world passes by in my summer
And we all sit round here in our home town
It's so good like this, these are times we'll miss
The memories, I hope they'll never fade
Summersummersummer. I've made it through gcses and I can finally relax and enjoy some time of chilling out, not worrying about anything and making some memories. In 11 days time I will be jetting off to Texas with 50 other people which will be pretty amazing, and I'm hoping for some good times back here in Northern Ireland (weather permitting, of course).
It's amazing what we remember, isn't it? We don't remember every day of our lives, and we don't remember every conversation we have, but we remember moments. I think it's sad that so many days slip out of our memories, but amazing that we can recall moments years after they've happened.
So I think we should have plenty of amazing moments, just in case not all of them make it into our memory banks. Pretty difficult to do when you're sitting in a classroom, but now that Summer's here I'm going to try my best!
It's so good like this, these are times we'll miss
The memories, I hope they'll never fade
Summersummersummer. I've made it through gcses and I can finally relax and enjoy some time of chilling out, not worrying about anything and making some memories. In 11 days time I will be jetting off to Texas with 50 other people which will be pretty amazing, and I'm hoping for some good times back here in Northern Ireland (weather permitting, of course).
It's amazing what we remember, isn't it? We don't remember every day of our lives, and we don't remember every conversation we have, but we remember moments. I think it's sad that so many days slip out of our memories, but amazing that we can recall moments years after they've happened.
So I think we should have plenty of amazing moments, just in case not all of them make it into our memory banks. Pretty difficult to do when you're sitting in a classroom, but now that Summer's here I'm going to try my best!
Monday, 9 May 2011
Thursday, 5 May 2011
gcses.com
They've been looming for a while now, & yet they have appeared to have snuck/sneaked up on me! My first "big" exams, so lots of studying to be done. I most likely won't have many posts for a wee while, so I'm sure the one person who actually follows me will be devastated...not.
Wish me luck though!
Wish me luck though!
But tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising
Don't lose who you are, in the blur of the stars
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay...
Here in Northern Ireland we're very accustomed to saying that we're "fine." (I'm not sure if it's the same elsewhere, so I can only speak about what I know). We don't like being weak, and we certainly won't admit it to anyone else. We have the desire to appear strong and independant, no matter how we're feeling on the inside.
A friend of mine is considered the strong one. My friend group is a bit disfunctional, to say the very least. There's always some sort of petty drama going on, and this friend (we'll call her Laura) is always the one who has the level head. Laura is the eldest, and feels as if she must hold everyone else together. While she is very necessary & appreciated, she doesn't realise that she can fall apart too. She doesn't have to wear her mask all the time. Sure, she can help others out, but she's gotta admit to others that she isn't okay- and that's allowed!
I've only lived a little bit of my life and already I've clicked onto the fact that it's not a smooth ride all the time- shocker, right? So yea, while it's good to help others out (and you definitely should try to), you have to look after yourself & realise that there's always somebody about who you can have a wee chat with.
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay...
Here in Northern Ireland we're very accustomed to saying that we're "fine." (I'm not sure if it's the same elsewhere, so I can only speak about what I know). We don't like being weak, and we certainly won't admit it to anyone else. We have the desire to appear strong and independant, no matter how we're feeling on the inside.
A friend of mine is considered the strong one. My friend group is a bit disfunctional, to say the very least. There's always some sort of petty drama going on, and this friend (we'll call her Laura) is always the one who has the level head. Laura is the eldest, and feels as if she must hold everyone else together. While she is very necessary & appreciated, she doesn't realise that she can fall apart too. She doesn't have to wear her mask all the time. Sure, she can help others out, but she's gotta admit to others that she isn't okay- and that's allowed!
I've only lived a little bit of my life and already I've clicked onto the fact that it's not a smooth ride all the time- shocker, right? So yea, while it's good to help others out (and you definitely should try to), you have to look after yourself & realise that there's always somebody about who you can have a wee chat with.
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